i feel sick today.. so sick that i feel that im gonna faint anytime now..

anyway..


how do you choose?? well, here's the thing.. i like this guy.. but then

he's the type that.. how do i say this?? "torpe.." so he knows that i like

him.. and i know that he likes me but he didn't say it to me.. he told my

best friends and my friends told me..


so i just waited and waited.. and waited.. when i finally gave up on him..

coz i dunno.. i just did.. i felt that i was waiting for nothing.. and so.. i

gave up... i didn't plan on looking for someone else.. coz im satisifed on

having my friends..


but it just happens that someone came along... and i knew this guy for a

long time now.. coz he's my neighbor.. we talked often and i'd usually see

him in the court playing basketball.. i noticed a lot of things.. first his

looks.. he's so cute!! especially when he smiles.. it's like when he smiles

and then he looks at me.. my world stops.. and i just look at him and

when eveything starts moving again still he satnds out.. second, his

sense of humor.. whenever we talk, and i mentioned to him that im bored

or i feel so tired.. or im sleepy.. he just makes me laugh.. and i became

hyper again.. there are alot of things i can say about this guy.. but then

it might take me three or four days to finish it.. so let's go on with the

story..


remember the torpe guy?? well.. it just occured that the topic of crushes

came up.. now.. im really honest so i told hm that i had a crush on him

before and i couldn't deny that i still like him..

he then said that he likes me too but he also said that he has

a special someone already.. after a few days.. he told me he loves me..

hmmph.. sonow i don't know who im gonna pick coz my neighbor.. he's

courting me and i don't know if i should answer him coz im afraid that i

might hurt him... so there.. that's what i've been thninking of the whole

day!! and im sick of keeping it to myself!! thanks for reading!! :)